Thursday, April 25, 2013

Crazy Town might be Hotel California.

I have been a part of some crazy shenanigans in the past year or so dealing with my ex-wife and her family but, the past week and a half has presented itself with challenges that I didn't think I would ever have to deal with or even be presented with.

My interactions with her family have been constant and while they present themselves as caring for me and being empathetic to my situation I am completely certain that they are interested in being helpful to the point that it makes sure they will be able to see my son. I mean they tried to get custody of him when we were were first split ! That went well for them. I understand this and use this to my advantage as best I can. It helps with some of my household chores and things around the house but, mostly it is just giving me a day a week to take care of the things I need to take of in my life.

That being said my son is happy and healthy and we are doing great. We have our struggles like any family but, we are moving forward and choosing to move forward. That is a lesson I have learned from a new old friend. She is one of the most positive people I have ever met.

Which, brings my next calamity moment of the past week.

I was the victim of a cruel and vicious joke when I was in high school. I was elected class president my senior year. I was unaware that this would mean that, much like some forlorn character in a movie, I was now indentured to my class for the rest of my life.

With this dubious honor comes the task of reunions apparently. Long story short, I have been working on this reunion thing for a little over four months now. I finally got what I thought was the ball rolling pretty effeciently from five hours away.

HOWEVER, in a matte of minutes I was informed by one group that I was doing nothing and that I should , butt out, and by a whole other hostile group that I was trying to do it all by myself and wouldn't listen to anyone. This literally happened within minutes of each other,

So I quit and I have been happy for it.

it seems to me like my life is a series of events in a circle. I can try and be reasonable and it doesn't work. I set my limits and try to make my life normal and it eventually is turned back into a carnival ride. I hate the song Hotel California but, I sure as hell understand it now.

take care and watch out for bird poop. (one of my all time fears is to be pooped on by a bird)

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Catching up

It has been a couple of weeks and frankly I haven't just had time to get to writing this thing. Sorry.

I sure have needed this little fountain of whine where I can say almost all the things I would like to say.

Things have been busy to say the least. I haven't really had much negative happen other than a few situations that I would like to share. 

The boy got sick
He found out that the ex is having a child
Constant communication with my ex-inlaws. Which is exhausting.
Work has just been weird.

Most of them were easy to handle. When your kid is sick, you take them to the doctor and try to make them feel better. Simple. 

It was not even that hard to talk to him about the ex having a baby. He doesn't think about relationships and their complications. Man I him envy him on that one. 

His thought process is - He loves his mommy. Mommy is having a baby. I am a brother. Done. 

I wish I could feel that simply about any relationship. It seems relationships are increasingly hard for me because of my being burned so badly. From work to old friends, I find myself thinking about the angles more than the statements or actions. I have been around people who manipulate for so long that people who don't really want anything but friendship seem to be non existent  Every one seems to have an angle, including me sometimes. It is all so confusing and frankly sad that it has come to that but life goes on. 

I feel like my life is getting to make a sharp turn. I have been taking little steps to financial, physical, and mental well being for the past year. Now I feel like in the next couple of months so dramatic changes are going to take place and I am more than ready to rock this boat as hard as it will without capsizing and removing all the progress I have made.

Oh well just some thoughts to catch up on. I am sure I will have more to say later in the week. 

Be good.