I sure have needed this little fountain of whine where I can say almost all the things I would like to say.
Things have been busy to say the least. I haven't really had much negative happen other than a few situations that I would like to share.
The boy got sick
He found out that the ex is having a child
Constant communication with my ex-inlaws. Which is exhausting.
Work has just been weird.
Most of them were easy to handle. When your kid is sick, you take them to the doctor and try to make them feel better. Simple.
It was not even that hard to talk to him about the ex having a baby. He doesn't think about relationships and their complications. Man I him envy him on that one.
His thought process is - He loves his mommy. Mommy is having a baby. I am a brother. Done.
I wish I could feel that simply about any relationship. It seems relationships are increasingly hard for me because of my being burned so badly. From work to old friends, I find myself thinking about the angles more than the statements or actions. I have been around people who manipulate for so long that people who don't really want anything but friendship seem to be non existent Every one seems to have an angle, including me sometimes. It is all so confusing and frankly sad that it has come to that but life goes on.
I feel like my life is getting to make a sharp turn. I have been taking little steps to financial, physical, and mental well being for the past year. Now I feel like in the next couple of months so dramatic changes are going to take place and I am more than ready to rock this boat as hard as it will without capsizing and removing all the progress I have made.
Oh well just some thoughts to catch up on. I am sure I will have more to say later in the week.
Be good.
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